Catholic chaplain at San Quentin’s Death Row

The darkest place on earth
Father Williams

Father Williams

The following comes from a Dec. 17 posting by Father George Williams, S.J. on

“For this is my body, which will be given up for you.”

Saying these words, I lift up the host for the men inside the cage to see.

The “chapel” in San Quentin State Prison’s Death Row is a windowless old shower room encased in a heavy metal cage. Inside it there are 6 wooden benches bolted to the floor upon which the members of my congregation sit. I stand, wearing both priestly vestments and a black stab-proof vest, inside my own cage, which is about twice the size of an old phone booth. As required by the department I have padlocked myself inside. All this makes me, to my knowledge, the only Jesuit in my community who regularly celebrates Mass in a Kevlar vest.

I look past the host to the men in the cage. They are quiet and focused. It’s at this point of the Mass that I often imagine, as I am standing there facing them, separated by the steel mesh, that the light of Christ is streaming forth from that host, dispelling the dark shadows of “East Block” – San Quentin’s Death Row for men.

There are 721 men currently condemned to death in the state of California – all of them housed at San Quentin. (There are 20 women on Death Row as well, but they are housed in another prison.) I work as the Catholic chaplain on the largest Death Row in the United States, possibly the Western Hemisphere.

Walk Alone cages

Walk Alone cages

Some of these men have called Death Row home for over 30 years; since the death penalty was reinstated in California in 1972. Executions were resumed that year by Proposition 17, a voter initiative that amended the state’s constitution, overturning previous court decisions that had found capital punishment unconstitutional. In the past 30 years far more men have died of old age (or from suicide) on San Quentin’s death row than the 13 who have been put to death by the state. Their hopelessness and despair linger in the shadows long after the bodies are wheeled out.

It is a building of many, many shadows. Visitors invariably comment on how eerie and dark the place looks and feels. The 12-foot high black doors at the entrance of the building, above which the words “CONDEMNED ROW” are written in calligraphic lettering, don’t help. Inside those doors an almost palpable air of oppression broods over the place.  There are plenty of ghosts too.

Walking onto Death Row, one is at first taken aback by the size of the place. As long as a city block, 5 floors (or tiers) high, the place looks like some kind of huge warehouse. There are windows that are so dirty that they are practically opaque. They let in a yellow light that does nothing to brighten the cavernous and lifeless space.

There are 50 cells to each tier, so, standing at the bottom, you ought to be able to see 250 prison cells spread out in front of you. But you cannot, because the cells of the top two tiers cannot be seen from the ground level. The view is blocked by a wall of gray and black metal.

The gas chamber

The gas chamber

Death Row smells like a locker room mixed with a cafeteria mixed with an outhouse. As you walk past the cells, the smell of a recent bowel movement blends nauseatingly with the smell of a neighbor cooking rice and beans in a hot pot. Perhaps surprisingly, however, Death Row is not very noisy. The loudest (and most annoying) noise is the incessant intercom at the guard’s station calling the Tier Officers to bring inmates to and from visits, medical appointments, or the shower. The concrete and metal walls trap the intercom’s sound, echoing it back and forth.

One set of cell-fronts face east, toward the Bay that cannot be seen for the dirty windows. The other 250 cells face “the Yard” – a World War II-era, rusting, corrugated-metal-roof structure housing a dozen large free-standing cages that look like kennels. It is inside these cages that the men on “walk-alone” status go to “recreate” for a few hours each week.

These men are on “walk alone” status because they have shown themselves too dangerous to mix with other prisoners. They are, in the main, responsible for the frequent stabbings and assaults that occur within a group of men who have nothing else to lose and who live in a tiny world of petty gossip and verbal abuse.

Every man there has told me, at one point or another, that the worst part of his life on Death Row is loneliness. I have been surprised, during these same conversations, to learn that not all of the men on Death Row are against the death penalty. Some would welcome it.

Each man has his own cell. Windowless, fronted by the same kind of heavy metal mesh, a barred door and a food slot with a cover that is padlocked shut most of the time, each cell measures 5 feet wide by about 10 feet deep. The cells are dark and cramped. At the back of the cell, at about eye level, there is a shelf, below it a stainless steel toilet with a stainless steel sink built into the top of it.  A small, round metal stool is built into one wall, and in front of the stool is a bed. Most of the men take the thin, 1-inch thick cotton mattress and put it on the floor to sleep. They use the flat metal platform of the bed as a desk instead. All the men have small televisions, which are always on, and which provide them their only view of the outside world.

“This is my body which will be given up for you.”

These words were spoken at the last meal of a man about to be condemned by the state and executed. It’s strange how the words of the Gospel take on a different resonance on Death Row. Jesus, the executed prisoner, reflected in the eyes of men also sentenced to die.

I know Jesus was innocent, and I know what these men have done to earn their cells and sentences. It took some doing on their part. It often took horrible, brutal crimes; the stuff of horror movies and nightmares. Over 100 of these men tortured their victims before killing them. Nearly 200 molested and killed children.

But as I raise the host I don’t see heinous murderers standing in front of me, I see human beings. And if His body were not given up for them too, then what difference would our religion make? The fact that His love reaches down into this pit of hell is what gives my life its meaning and purpose. I am often moved to tears at this part of the Mass, the part where it dawns on me again what a gift I have been given to be able to stand there and bear witness to the mercy of Christ embodied in this sacrament in such a dark place.

At the Sign of Peace we shake hands through our cages. This is the only point of physical contact with these men – they reach their hands through a 4×12 inch slot in the mesh wall to shake mine. I am often surprised at the way they grasp my hand – there is so little human touch on Death Row. In some ways, it feels to me like they are trying to grab hold of a different reality than the cold and lifeless place they live in. The handshake of a serial killer, a child-molester, a torturer feels the same as any other handshake.

There are moments of (admittedly dark) humor too.  Recently, one of my serial killer parishioners said to me, “Now Father, don’t do anything I wouldn’t do!”  This is no doubt the best advice I’ve received from a serial killer to-date….

The gas chamber at San Quentin, in which 196 prisoners died since 1938. In 1995, the use of gas in executions was ruled cruel and unusual punishment and was replaced by lethal injection. Source: California Department of Corrections.

Editor’s note: This article is part of PolicyMic’s Day of Discussion about prison peform.

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  1. ” In the past 30 years far more men have died of old age (or from suicide) on San Quentin’s death row than the 13 who have been put to death by the state.”

    CCC: ” 2267 Assuming that the guilty party’s identity and responsibility have been fully determined, the traditional teaching of the Church does not exclude recourse to the death penalty, if this is the only possible way of effectively defending human lives against the unjust aggressor.
    If, however, non-lethal means are sufficient to defend and protect people’s safety from the aggressor, authority will limit itself to such means, as these are more in keeping with the concrete conditions of the common good and are more in conformity to the dignity of the human person.
    Today, in fact, as a consequence of the possibilities which the state has for effectively preventing crime, by rendering one who has committed an offense incapable of doing harm – without definitely taking away from him the possibility of redeeming himself – the cases in which the execution of the offender is an absolute necessity “are very rare, if not practically non-existent.”

    Those on death row in all States have many YEARS to ask for God’s forgiveness and redeem themselves. (This is much more mercy than they ever gave their victims.)

    In the USA the death penalty is indeed very rare based upon its less than 0.0004 % of all those in prison.

    We must always remember that Church Doctrine contained in the CCC – is for the entire world not just our own Country. And unless otherwise specified the same is true of any statements of the Pope.

    • This Priest is trying to SAVE SOULS of serial killers, child-molesters, a torturers – some of whom would kill him if they had a chance. (Hence the kevelar vest for his own protection.)
      “Comforting the imprisoned” is a Corporal Work of Mercy.
      Prison ministry is very important.

      Personally, I think it is probably cruel and unusual punishment to allow anyone on death row – NOT to be executed within 5 years of sentencing, which allows plenty of time for appeals and for repentance to God.
      However, very long terms in prison are almost always brought about by the prisoners themselves by appeal after appeal after appeal even through they are guilty and dangerous.

  2. This year, Sr. Prejean, who works with the ACLU, took a group of California bishops to visit San Quentin: Archbishop Salvatore Cordileone, San Francisco; Bishop Richard Garcia, Monterey; Bishop Amando Ochoa, Fresno; Bishop Stephen Blaire, Stockton; Bishops William Justice and Robert McElroy, San Francisco; Bishop Dominic Luong, Orange County; Bishop Jaime Soto, Sacramento; and Bishop Michael Barber of Oakland.

    Do you think Sr Prejean or any other person would get those same bishops to enter a Planned Parenthood abortion mill and witness to life and Salvation?
    Maybe even just stand outside the mill as a group and witness?

    • Almost 55 MILLION of the most innocent human beings being slaughtered in the USA for the convenience of others,
      is not as important to some Bishops and Sr. Prejean as the few serial killer, child molester killers, and torturer killers who purposely drag on their appeals for years and years and years.

      If the Bishops and their Priests were treated the same as these innocents, with their heads and limbs pulled off, or chemically burned – what an outcry we would hear.

      • Kenneth M. Fisher says:


        I believe “Sr.” Prejean is once again a speaker at the REC in March of next year as are many advocates for illegals. Pray for Arch. Gomez’s eternal soul!

        May God have mercy on an amoral Amerika!
        Viva Cristo Rey!
        God bless, yours in Their Hearts,
        Kenneth M. Fisher, Founding Director
        Concerned Roman Catholics of America, Inc.

  3. good cause says:

    Virtually all of these men will die of natural causes because our state does not have the will or focus to carry out the law. There will be a new ballot initiative on the November 2014 to tighten up the law, which is good.

  4. I can’t work up a lot of sympathy for these guys. The judiciary, the legislature and various left wing groups have done their best to keep these killers alive.

    • Kenneth M. Fisher says:


      Not only that, but some of those on Death Row have arranged from their cells for the executions of witnesses against them!

      Where are the advocates for those true victims?

      May God have mercy on an amoral Amerika!
      Viva Cristo Rey!
      God bless, yours in Their Hearts,
      Kenneth M. Fisher, Founding Director
      Concerned Roman Catholics of America, Inc.

  5. Chief Louie says:

    Killing a person because of killing another person or group of persons is unusual punishment but the bible quote of an eye for an eye might prevail. What is unusual here is the time of suffering the inmates injure during the waiting time the death is given to them, it is the torturing of the individual. The presence of a Catholic Priest is to keep the inmates stable, hopeful of the forgiveness that after the death of the body may their soul receive the forgiveness of God through Jesus .

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